Thursday, August 24, 2006
Here's my confession: I am a people-pleaser, and this is not a good thing. I care too much about what people think. I want people to like me. Not because I'm an ego-maniac and not because I think "everything is about me." More likely it's because I'm not sure I always like myself -- or at least I'm unsure of who I really am, and so I seek the approval of others. One of the things that I've had to deal with as a public-figure-on-a-very-small-scale, is that there will always be people that don't like you. And so, one of the things I've been consciously working on, is growing a thicker skin. I'm not sure that I really know how to do this, but I think it comes from having a more disciplined mind, and by filling my mind with the idea that at the end of the day, I'm God's kid, and I'm still growing up. What kills me, and here's what started this post, is that the thing that drives me crazy is when I don't know where I stand with people -- when it's not clear whether they are friend or foe. I'm not sure how to deal with this one. Anyway, just felt the need to get this off my chest.
Posted by charlesdean2 at 10:09 AM