Dude, we're getting a Dell!

I thought you wanted to buy a Mac for your home computer? Yeah, I did, but our computer got fried on Sunday and we needed something now. And your point is? Two things really, first off, it would have cost more money for the Mac -- money we don't have right now -- I wasn't really planning on buying a computer for another year. And secondly, my wife wasn't convinced about the whole Mac thing. She hasn't been enlightened yet. So are you happy with the Dell or not? I'm really ambivelent. I did order a much-upgraded machine from the one we had (it was four years old), so I'm glad about that, but I really had my heart set on a Mac. So hopefully in 3 years...sigh...it sends me back to a real spiritual struggle I have with money -- and the fact that I want more of it. I've been noticing this recently, that I kinda have an obsession about money and wanting more of it. This can't be helpful or good for my soul. Have you talked to anyone about it? In tangential ways, but I've never really straight out said it. In the last couple of weeks, I've started to put a name to it, and it's hard. I don't like looking in the mirror and saying, I've got a problem with envy. It doesn't feel very spriritual or "pastoral." I mean pastors are supposed to be fulfilled by the doing of "God's work," they aren't supposed to want to be rich. So, you're saying that pastors aren't supposed to struggle with tempatations? I'm not saying that, but I am saying that this temptation feels weak. Have you prayed about it, surrendered it, confessed it? I'm in the process...but I'm feeling like this won't go away overnight -- it's going to take some hard work of surrender. All right, I've already said too much, and probably bared more of my soul than I intended to in a casual post about getting a new computer. By the way, did I mention that I ordered it (the new computer) on Wednesday afternoon and it looks like it will be here Monday? No, you didn't mention it. Well I'm mentioning it now. It's pretty impressive. This will make me sound old, but I remember back in the days where you ordered computers and it took a couple weeks. That makes me sound old. I need to go now.