Thursday, September 22, 2005
There are days that I feel guilty for being a pastor -- that it's my JOB to read books, study, find time for solace, meet people for coffee, breakfast or lunch, pray, fast, reflect... Sometimes, when my friends ask me what I did in a day, I'm embarassed because I feel like what I did that do is so insignificant compared to what they do. I know that I'm supposed to tell myself that what I'm doing is of eternal importance, but a lot of days it feels a little lame, a little selfish, like I'm not worthy of the paycheck I receive. I guess that's the tough dynamic. My friends pay my salary...and I feel like I'm not productive enough... sorry...just needed to be real for a moment...did I mention that I'm feeling a little melancholoy today?
Posted by charlesdean2 at 10:22 AM